And Yes, I just lost someone close to me recently. It's very heart-wrenching and only Allah knows what I feel deep down. I did say sorry. I do not even know if whatever good deeds I've done for her makes her happy. I do not know. I know that I was there for her,Saw her alone on bed, looking to her right in a very cold room makes me so sad to leave her alone, talked to her from 4am to 5am. Trying to make her repeat after me, reciting some verses of the Quran and etc. SHe would stare at me, looking at my police shirt, my watch and my mouth. The last time I ever saw her alive was she stared me before I left for night shift the following day.

But nevertheless, gotta learn to redha. :/ On the bright side, it makes me learn to appreciate the people around me. To be more kind, patience and smile to the people around me.

And Yes, I just lost someone close to me recently. It's very heart-wrenching and only Allah knows what I feel deep down. I did say sorry. I do not even know if whatever good deeds I've done for her makes her happy. I do not know. I know that I was there for her,Saw her alone on bed, looking to her right in a very cold room makes me so sad to leave her alone, talked to her from 4am to 5am. Trying to make her repeat after me, reciting some verses of the Quran and etc. SHe would stare at me, looking at my police shirt, my watch and my mouth. The last time I ever saw her alive was she stared me before I left for night shift the following day.

But nevertheless, gotta learn to redha. :/ On the bright side, it makes me learn to appreciate the people around me. To be more kind, patience and smile to the people around me.